melt down

I kinda knew I had gained some weight.

I have been trying to get my heart rate up and eat very sensibly.

But tonight, I sit in one of the two pairs of jeans I'm not muffin topping over and a frayed tee shirt that has stretched to fit, and know that my body isn't the same and hasn't been for quite some time.

I had a melt down, after trying on the 6th outfit to go out tonight, unexpectedly.

I'm busting out the top I'm rolling on the back the buttons are stretching making key holes.

I have two pairs of jeans right now, both worn and ripped with stains from wear and tear.

I have on a worn hoodie in the same shape that dean gave me over a year ago that was used then and I haven't done it any favours.

It's tight across my chest and shoulders like everything else.

I know its' fine for around the house, but I just realized, none of my going out clothes fit me any more.

under normal circumstances, I would have gone out and picked up a cheap top or a pair of jeans from a sale rack, but that's not an option.

I honestly don't quite know what to do any more.

I feel like a ragga muffin.