On sunday

I had a babysitter dilema.

solved it with a few calls and a trip to dino's first ex tanya.

It was an odd experience to say the least, as the last time I saw her was the day her and her husband came for brunch and dino was on a meth bender (his idea about brunch though) two days before she was due to deliver her first child.

It was also the day that I decided that things were done with Dino and I began to seperate myself emotionally from him.

Needless to say, we had a lot to talk about and catch up on.

Things are good for them, hey have a new place to live, as well as a new baby on the way.

I met her daughter Arianna for the first time, wow was she cute.

I also experienced a kind of a sense of loss.

I will not be having a second child. I was a little envious of mike and tanya.

I always thought I would have another, but I don't think that is in the cards any more.

It kinda weighed on me that even though I am with the person that my heart has always needed, we will not be having a child together who will be part of both of us.

With his eyes or my smile.

Just thought I would share that bit

any way back to your day.